Loneliness

Achieving my goal is not enough for me. May be I am lickerish person. When I watch my favorite movie alone, I feel uncomfortable. At that moment I want my friends to watch that movie and feel my feeling too. I hate to be alone. Actually I was not that fearful being alone until I dream last year…

Here my dream goes.

In my dream I had a very big aspiration that I want to achieve. I exerted a lot. One day me close friend came to me and asked me to help her for her maths exam. I refused without any doubt, because I had a lot to do. The day after that day one of my friend came to me and invited me to her birthday. But I did not come with them because of my aspiration. My rejection continued like this for about a year. I did harms to the people who were ahead me.

At last the day of achieving my goal came to me. I was really but really happy. Getting my goal is just like pure chocolate. I pledged myself never to lose my happiness. And I looked at my friends and my rivals back. They looked so tiny and they fell behind so far from me. I laughed and applauded for me. I was the top of everyone.

The first week I was happy. And the second week I was becoming bored. Third week I got fed of talking to myself. …. Third month I recognized that I was becoming mad. You may ask WHY?

I was alone. No one was with me. Can you imagine that you are alone in the world? No talking no laughing, no loving and no being loved. I felt like alien for my friends. It was the worst feeling that I have ever felt. Even I was not able to cry, because my teardrops left me alone too. I had no right to complain against my teardrop due to I’d forgotten about my teardrop during the time I was devoting to my goal.

Fortunately, my alarm rang and I woke up. What an awful nightmare it was. I looked around me. My roommate looked at me and said “Good morning” with her warm smile. It was real happiness. Do believe that it was far more great feeling than the feeling after I achieving my goal. I understood that success is tasty when you are with your friends.

Achieving my goal is not enough for me. I must be with other people…:D

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